First appeared in the 'My Seducer' zine.

Ezra sighed as he stared down at the bowl of Pasta-Roni Fettuccini Alfredo he'd just made for himself. Not the finest of cuisine, but it was quick, easy, and required very little thought. To go with this exquisite meal he had a glass of brandy. Originally he'd considered simply drinking his dinner then decided it would be better if he ate something. Watching the fettuccini congeal on his plate, he began to rethink that decision.

Looking around his silent condo, he cursed the powers that be who had decided Vin needed to attend a weeklong conference in Virginia. If it weren't for that he would most likely be out at Chris's ranch eating with his two lovers. Instead, he was here alone and completely unsurprised that Chris had not suggested he come out to the ranch where he, and now Vin, lived.

When Vin had moved out there three months ago, Vin had suggested Ezra move too. After a time, Chris had suggested it as well, but too much time had passed for Ezra not to realize Vin had put him up to it. Not being one for going where he wasn't fully wanted, he'd declined. He knew and accepted that Chris only allowed him in their relationship because it was what Vin wanted. It was another reason why, when they'd decided to tell the others about their relationship, he'd asked that they not include him. He knew it had hurt Vin, and he himself ached to announce his love for both Vin and Chris to the world, but he would not open himself to that rejection. Chris loved Vin and allowed him to be part of their relationship because Vin loved them both.

Ezra once again contemplated applying for a transfer or simply resigning. Resigning would probably be easier. Judge Travis would never grant the transfer, and no other department wanted him anyway. Too many of them still saw his checkered record. He had no idea what he would do, but it had to be better than continuing to torture himself this way. More and more he was feeling like the proverbial fifth wheel. Rubbing a tired hand over his face, he gave up on the fettuccini. It looked more like plaster of Paris at this point. He dumped the congealed mess down the garbage disposal as he took a hearty swallow of brandy. Liquid dinner it was.

The ringing of the phone startled him, his hand jerking and sloshing some of the brandy on the counter. He grabbed it on the second ring. "Standish."

"How much longer are you gonna be?"

Ezra almost dropped his glass at the sound of Chris's voice. "Pardon?"

"How much longer are you gonna be before you get to the ranch?" Chris repeated his question. "Steaks'll be done in about half an hour. I didn't want to put the noodles and asparagus on too soon though. So, how much longer?"

"Just the time it takes to drive over. I was on my way out the door," Ezra finally managed to answer, still not believing this was happening.

"Good. See you soon, Ez."

He stared at the receiver for almost a full minute before he bolted into action. The phone and glass of brandy were left forgotten on the counter as he rushed into his bedroom. Grabbing his overnight bag, he didn't want to presume too much, he dumped casual clothes for the next day into it then headed into the bathroom for his toiletry bag. Once he was certain he had all the necessities for spending the night at the ranch, Ezra headed to the door.

The whole drive out he tried to keep the butterflies in his stomach calm. He was reading way too much into this. Chris was probably just lonely without Vin there so had called him out of desperation. What if Vin had called Chris and, when he found out Ezra wasn't there, talked Chris into inviting him over? What if Chris was just doing this because he felt bad for Ezra? What if Chris was just expecting dinner and sex, and then Ezra was supposed to go home? What if he looked like an ass in front of the man he respected so much? The man he loved? He couldn't do this.

The Jag came to a screeching halt on the road a mile from the entrance to the ranch. He couldn't do this. He couldn't handle it if, for Chris, this was just something to pass the time until Vin came home. He wanted so desperately to turn the car around and go home. Ezra snorted at that thought. The condo wasn't a home. He hadn't even unpacked from the move from Atlanta, and he'd been there close to two years now. God, what the hell was he thinking? Did he really think Larabee was going to let him hang around them forever? No. It was only a matter of time before he was asked to leave. He was always asked to leave. Well, this time he would leave before they could ask, on his own terms. He would hand in his resignation to the Judge tomorrow before he left and then just disappear. He wished he could wait to say goodbye to Vin, but he knew Vin would be able to talk him into staying. Vin would get over it. Chris would see to that.

That decision made Ezra started the Jag moving again. He would enjoy this night with Chris and tomorrow night he would be gone. Maybe he'd go someplace tropical. It was early October and already the temperature was dropping way below his personal comfort level. Pulling into the driveway, he parked the Jag next to Chris's Ram. Vin's Jeep was on the other side beneath the barn overhang to protect it from the elements. He noticed Chris standing on the porch as he exited his car, overnight bag in hand.

On the steps he was surprised when Chris smiled, leaned over and kissed him before saying hello. That was usually Vin's method of greeting. He usually got a grunted hi and a quick peck if it meant Chris didn't have to move too far from wherever he was. He chalked it up to Chris already missing Vin.

"Perfect timing, Ez. I just put the noodles and asparagus on. They should be ready in about five-ten minutes." Chris noticed the small overnight bag. "Suit bag in the Jag?"

He'd taken a couple of steps towards the car when Ezra stopped him. "No. I thought I'd go in casual tomorrow."

"All right, but what about the rest of the week?" Chris asked, following Ezra into the house.

"What about it?" he asked, neatly hanging his jacket in the foyer closet.

"Well, what are you going to wear?" Chris grabbed the overnight bag and tossed it into the master bedroom. He turned to look at Ezra. "You are spending the week out here, aren't you?"

"I did not wish to presume..."

"Presume what? You're here all the time already. Is it so odd for you to spend the week out here while Vin's away?"

"You don't think our associates..."

"Friends, Ezra. They're our friends, dammit."

"Fine. You don't think our friends wouldn't find it the least bit strange that I am staying here while Vin, your lover..."

"Our lover. He is our lover."

"Our friends don't know that!"

"And who the hell's fault is that?"

"That's it. I'm leaving! You don't want me here, all you had to do was say so!"

"What? Who said...Dammit, Ezra! I don't know what crawled up your butt, but you are not leaving. I did not take the time to make us a nice dinner just to have it ruined because you decided to act like an ass. Now sit down and enjoy your steak. Goddamn, I sound like my wife!"

Chris glared at him until he took a seat at the table that had been set for two. Ezra noticed the candles, the wine chilling off to the side, and the romantic music playing softly in the background. If he didn't know better, he would think Chris was trying to seduce him. The small part of him that hoped he was, was quickly squashed by his larger self-doubts. 'He's probably just trying to make this easier on himself,' the snide inner voice commented. 'You watch. He'll drink most of that bottle of wine himself to help make it easier to pretend you're Vin.' Ezra wanted to tell the voice to shut up but he was afraid the voice was right.

After some loud banging and angry muttering in the kitchen, Chris appeared with two plates. They both contained a decent sized Porterhouse steak and heaping portions of egg noodles and asparagus. He set the plates down, then retrieved the bottle of wine to pour them each a glass. Finally when the candles were lit and everything was set to Chris' satisfaction, he took his seat across from Ezra.

Ezra raised his glass and toasted Chris with a "Salut," before he had a chance to say anything. Chris's gaze narrowed but he simply responded with a salut of his own. They both sipped from their wine and dug into the food before them. Ezra was pleasantly surprised that the food was quite good. The asparagus had been cooked just the way he liked them. Steamed then brushed with a light butter and garlic oil. The steak was mildly spiced, just enough to enhance the natural flavor of the meat. "This is quite good, Chris. I don't think I've ever had steak flavored like this."

"It was one of Sarah's recipes," Chris said quietly with a shrug. "I thought you might like it."

"I do. Thank you." A small doubt about Chris's intentions began to grow giving Ezra hope. Several more minutes passed in silence.

"How's the Johnson case coming?" Chris asked.

"I seem to have reached an impasse with it," Ezra shrugged, sipping some more wine.

"Why? What's the problem?"

"I've been trying to access his FBI file but keep getting rejected."

"He's got an FBI file? I don't remember that being in the casefile." Chris sat up a little straighter. He didn't like it when other agencies withheld information on his cases.

"You wouldn't. No mention of it was made in the file we were given. The only reason I happen to know about it is I remember a colleague of mine complaining quite vociferously about Johnson being released of all charges on a technicality. A bit of complete incompetence if I recall."

Chris frowned. "That was when you were in Atlanta. Any chance he'll recognize you?"

"Highly unlikely. I was in Pittsburgh undercover on another case for almost the entire duration of the operation, and I was never remotely involved in it."

"Good. Last thing we need is for him to recognize you." Ezra felt that small glimmer of hope grow, only to have it dashed by Chris' next words. "That would blow the case all to hell. Be a big waste of all our hours of work. Talk to JD tomorrow. I've heard this rumor that he might know of a backdoor into the FBI system, but I wouldn't know anything about it."

Ezra answered Chris' smirk with a slight smile of his own. "Of course not."

No mention was made of any concern for Ezra's well-being if he were indeed recognized, as if it wouldn't matter much. He tried to push the hurtful thought away as inside he died a little more. The meal continued silently for another several minutes until Chris spoke again.

"Talked to Vin just before you got here."

"Oh? How is he enjoying the conference in Virginia?"

"Bored out of his mind. Most of the weapons demos and seminars aren't until tomorrow or the day after. Today was a lot of meet and greet crap. Said you probably would have had a good time. There were a couple of guys you would have loved taking down a notch or two. He's gonna try and call back later to talk to you. He was sorry he missed you."

"As am I."

Once again they lapsed into silence. Ezra was beginning to think they were incapable of holding a conversation without Vin around. What had ever made him think Chris Larabee could love him? The man couldn't even speak to him for more than five minutes at a time.

Chris looked across the table at the Southerner for probably the thousandth time that night. He wished he were as good as Vin at reading him, this man who had found a place in his heart right beside the sharpshooter. He still couldn't believe it. He, Chris Larabee, a man who for forty years had never even considered an intimate relationship with another man, he'd been married for Christsakes, and now he was in love and lovers with not one, but two men. A lean, longhaired sharpshooter and a smaller more compact man who could change personas like most people changed clothes. The chameleon was eating with him tonight, his expression carefully neutral as if he were trying to fade into the background hoping no one would notice him there and therefore wouldn't think to get rid of him. Suddenly the idea that Vin had been trying to pound into his head for the past four months sank in. Did Ezra really not know how much he loved him? How could he not know? Vin knew. Hell, he suspected Buck knew. Yet Ezra had completely missed it. Now he had to figure out how to convince Ezra he loved him.

Ezra had just finished eating when Chris rose from his chair, plate in hand. "Do you want another helping, Ezra, or are you finished eating?"

"Um, no, thank you. I'm done." Ezra started to rise to help clear the table but Chris pushed him back down.

"Sit. I'll take care of this."

"But, Mr. Larabee, Chris, I..."

"I said I'll take care of it, Ezra. Now sit down before I tie you to that chair. Jeez, makes me think you don't like being pampered and I, for one, know that's not true."

Standing in the doorway of the kitchen, Chris watched the different emotions cross over Ezra's face. His heart ached at just how much he'd taken for granted that the silent bond he shared with Vin would automatically expand to encompass Ezra as well. He knew Vin and Ezra had it. He'd seen them set up whole schemes with only a few eyebrow gestures. He'd thought he had it with Ezra, but apparently he was wrong. Chris was going to have to show Ezra, prove to him how much he loved him. Only, like training a young colt to saddle, if he moved too quickly or made the wrong move he would send Ezra into retreat and have to start all over again. And he would. He would do whatever it took to prove his love to Ezra.

He saw the confusion, the fear, and a brief moment of panic rush over the younger man's face. How could have missed all of this for so long? Not seen all the doubts and fears? Because Ezra didn't want him to see them. Yet one more reason why he would cheerfully strangle Maude if he thought he could get away with it. Thanks to her 'teachings' Ezra felt he had to constantly hide what he felt for fear of others thinking him weak, of rejecting him for that weakness. As far as Chris was concerned it didn't make him weak, it made him human.

Chris took a step back into the kitchen, rattled a plate against the counter, and then stepped back into the dining room. The poker face had been slipped back into place; the emotions so openly displayed in that unguarded moment were gone as if they'd never been. "Here you go. Rhubarb pie, your favorite."

Sitting down, Chris looked up to find Ezra staring at him, a look of disbelief on his face. Suspecting the real reason by the disbelief, Chris chose to give him a way to gracefully hide the display of emotion. "This is rhubarb pie isn't it? The box said it was."

"Yes...yes, it is, but how did you know it was my favorite?"

"Vin and I were at the supermarket the other day, and they were putting out fresh pies. You know Vin and his sweet tooth. Anyway, he mentioned that rhubarb was your favorite while he was more of an apple pie person. I prefer peach cobbler myself, but to each his own. Do you like it? I picked it up fresh on the way home."

"Yes, it's quite good," Ezra said with a smile.

Chris surreptitiously watched him eating, once more wondering at what thoughts were running through the Southerner's head right then. It was obvious from the way he ate that Ezra was enjoying the pie, but did that mean he also appreciated the effort Chris had made to get his particular favorite? Times like this Chris felt like he was back when he was first trying to woo Sarah. She'd been a complete mystery to him half the time, never sure what would make her happy and what would make her give him that look that said, "Larabee, you idiot."

He waited until they were almost finished before speaking again. "Why won't you move out here with Vin and me?"

Ezra paused briefly with a forkful of pie halfway to his lips. He finished the motion, chewed and swallowed before answering. "We've been over why."

"Well, I'd like to go over it again. Why won't you move in with us? Why won't you let us tell the others that we're all together? That we love you?"

Watching Ezra carefully, he saw the shuttered look in his eyes when he asked the first time. When he asked a second time, demanding a real answer, he was surprised when the shuttered look was replaced by bitterness.

Ezra laughed. A short, sharp, brittle laugh that made Chris wince. "I have always considered you to be an honest, if somewhat blunt, man, Mr. Larabee. Lying, particularly now, does not become you and will get you nowhere."

This was not quite the reaction Chris expected or wanted, but it gave him some clue as to how much damage he'd done in his stupidity. "Why do you think I'm lying to you?"

"Please, Mr. Larabee, just how stupid do you think I am? You have made it abundantly clear that the only reason I am allowed to participate in this relationship is because it is what Vin wants. Just as I am aware that you only invited me to live here after Vin asked you to. I know I am not the sort of person another could love, Mother has made that quite clear to me over the years, but I do have some pride. I understand and thought I accepted the conditions of our relationship. I was willing to take what I could get until the day you tired of me and asked me to quit the relationship. I will not accept having my feelings toyed with. I think it is best if I return to my dwelling now. Good night."

Chris was on his feet and by Ezra's side before he got more than a couple of steps from the table. "Ezra, wait. I'm not trying to toy with you. Tell me your feelings."

"I thought I just made them clear. Did I say something you didn't understand, Mr. Larabee?"

"No, I understood all too well what you just said. I mean your feelings for me and for Vin. Do you want this relationship with us?"

"It doesn't matter."

"Of course it matters what you want."

"No, it doesn't. What I want, what I feel doesn't matter. It has never mattered. Not then. Not now. Not ever." Ezra was getting angry. "Why are you doing this to me? Why are you pretending you care about me? You don't. I know you don't."

"You are wrong, Ezra," Chris grabbed his upper arms preventing him from turning away or leaving. "You are so very wrong. Jesus, I've been an idiot. A blind, stupid idiot who thought he knew everything."

"I don't understand," Ezra said, allowing the mask to slip a little, allowing Chris to see the confusion he felt.

"No, you don't and that's my fault. All this time I've just assumed you knew that I loved you. No, don't say anything. Not yet. Vin and I share a silent bond that I know you share with him as well. And don't try to deny it. I've seen you two pull off schemes without a word spoken between you. I thought that we, you and I, shared that bond as well. It just never occurred to me that you needed the words, the outright gestures of affection to know how much I love you. I also began to think that maybe you didn't love me as much as I did you, that you just tolerated me. You always seemed so reluctant to join in, especially if it was something I suggested. I do love you, Ezra. Just the same as I love Vin. No more and certainly no less. As Vin is on my right I want you on my left, Ezra. Now and always. I want you here in my home, in my bed, in my life, and in my heart. Because you do matter, Ezra. You matter so very much."

Chris gazed down into Ezra's dark emerald green eyes trying to put as much love and adoration into his own eyes as he could. Chris cupped Ezra's cheek in one hand, his thumb brushing back and forth over the bone in a gentle caress.

"You love me?" Ezra asked, his tongue darting to out to lick nervously at his lips.

The tone of the honeyed voice was so sad, so uncertain, Chris wanted to weep at the damage he'd inflicted upon this beautiful man before him. Lifting his other hand to brush it through the soft brown hair, he smiled. "Yes, Ezra, I love you. I love you so much I ache from it sometimes. I love you and I want you. Make love to me, Ezra?"

Ezra exhaled sharply when Chris took a step forward, pressing their bodies together. He could feel Chris's arousal against his leg through the layers of clothes. He could see the desire, passion, and love in his eyes. But he was still uncertain. Chris had always been the one to dominate in this part of the relationship. On a few rare occasions that Ezra had been present, Vin had been allowed to take Chris, but whenever he'd made a move to do so, Chris had swiftly turned the tables on him.

"But I'm not allowed." Ezra wanted to groan when he realized how asinine that sounded but held his tongue waiting for Chris's reaction.

"Yes, you are."

"You never let me before. You let Vin, but never me." Ezra managed to stop himself from pouting and stamping his foot. Good Lord, he was acting like a child.

Chris didn't seem to notice as he closed his eyes briefly and sighed. "You're right, Ez. I'll be honest. I'm not entirely comfortable with being on the bottom. Not that I don't enjoy it when it happens, but I'm still not all that comfortable. I think it comes from being straight for so many years. I guess I just feel like I have to be in control. The few times Vin's taken me I've been far too distracted by you to notice what he was doing until it was happening. I want you to take me now, Ezra. Make love to me with no distractions. Just you and me."

Chris held his breath as Ezra slowly lifted a hand and hooked it behind his neck, pulling him down to gently press their lips together. It started as a soft, chaste kiss, then Ezra's tongue glided over Chris's bottom lip tasting, asking permission for entrance. Chris opened his mouth to the slick muscle, caressing it with his own, thrilled at the small whimpers it produced from the Southerner. Ezra's other hand rested on Chris's hip, his fingers clutching at the black material of his shirt. Chris wrapped both arms around the smaller man holding him close, holding him tight.

After a moment they pulled away, both gasping for air, but retained their tight hold on each other. Leaning forward so that their foreheads touched, Chris sighed happily. Ezra was finally in his arms where he belonged.

"I think perhaps it is time to adjourn this to the bedroom," Ezra smiled up at his lover, undoing the buttons of the black shirt.

"What? You don't want to take me right here in the dining room?" Chris teased.

Ezra arched an eyebrow at him. "Not tonight, no. Perhaps tomorrow night. Right now I prefer that sinful king-sized bed in the master bedroom."

Chris's pulse quickened at the promise those emerald eyes held, a flush of desire spreading through him, centering in his groin. Realizing this would be over before it began if he didn't cool off a little, Chris said, "Why don't you head into the bedroom? I want to put the wine in the fridge and blow out the candles."

"I'll help."

"No. I've got it. Tonight is all about you, Ezra. So go on. I'll be right there."

"You're wrong, Chris," Ezra smiled when Chris frowned. "Tonight is about us. But since you're being so gallant tonight, I'll go. Bring the wine with you when you come."

"Anything you want, Ez," Chris grinned, before leaning down to kiss him one more time. He pulled away then pushed him in the direction of the bedroom. Chris paused to watch him go, thankful that he'd finally come to his senses and talked to Ezra. With a grin he went to clear off the table. Several minutes later, wine bottle in hand, he opened the door of the bedroom and stopped in his tracks.

Ezra had pulled out the stash of candles and must have lit every single one of them around the room bathing it in a soft glow. The Southerner lay propped up on the bed completely nude, one arm curled behind his head, the other resting on his stomach. His right leg was bent and slightly away from his left giving a clear view of his hard manhood. Chris idly wondered if he'd been talking to Vin lately. Vin had mentioned once that he loved the sight of Ezra by candlelight. It brought out the red and gold highlights in the Southerner's chestnut hair and turned his pale skin to a molten honey color. Seeing him like this, Chris had to agree. He was the most beautiful sight Chris had seen in a long time. All the time he spent in the kitchen trying to cool his ardor went right out the window as his own cock swelled painfully in his too tight jeans.

Ezra frowned when Chris continued to stand in the doorway not moving, not saying anything. Just staring. "Is everything all right, Chris? Did I do something wrong?"

"No," Chris gasped out. "I'm afraid to move."

That tidbit did little to allay Ezra's worries. "Why? What's wrong?"

"Jeans're too tight. I'm gonna cum if I move. Jesus Christ, you're beautiful, Ez."

"Is that all?" Ezra purred, rising from the bed. A light blush covered his cheeks and torso from Chris's compliment, completely unaware that it only enhanced his beauty. Gliding across the room, because Chris would swear Ezra's feet never touched the ground, he moved in front of his blonde lover and took the bottle of wine from him putting it down safely. Dropping to his knees, Ezra placed one hand on Chris's hip, the other cupped the obvious arousal, gently squeezing it. "Is this for me?"

"Oh God, Ez," Chris moaned, "you know it is."

"Good," the Southerner grinned wickedly, pulling the bottom of Chris's shirt from his jeans. Chris groaned again at the sensation of the fabric moving roughly over his already sensitive erection. Once the fabric was free, Ezra pushed it up so he could place several lazy kisses over the lightly furred navel. Chris gasped in pleasure at each kiss. Next Ezra moved on to his jeans. The top button was easily undone, but the zipper was not so quickly lowered over the straining bulge. By the time it was down, Chris was certain he'd left bruises from where he'd dug his fingers into Ezra's shoulders. When Ezra appeared to consider taking his time in lowering the cotton briefs Chris gave his lover a pleading look, urging him to be merciful. The moment it was free, the drooling cock sprang forward leaving a sticky trail of pre-cum behind. Grasping the rigid length, Ezra grinned when Chris's hips bucked and even more pre-cum dribbled out.

Without warning, Ezra deep throated Chris to the root, his hands quickly grasping those lean hips to keep him upright. Chris cried out as the hot wetness engulfed him, pushing him over the edge into orgasm. His fingers tangled in Ezra's hair, holding tightly as he thrust into that sweet mouth. He cried and groaned at each shudder that swept through him to gather at his spasming cock. When the last shudder passed, he sank to the floor, only Ezra's strong grip keeping him from simply collapsing.

Ezra leaned over the dazed man lying sprawled in the doorway, half in, half out of the bedroom, a slight smirk on his lips. "You okay, Chris?"

"Holy shit," Chris muttered, before turning to look at the bewitching nymph masquerading as his Southern lover. "What did you do to me? I swear I saw stars."

"So, you were pleased?"

"Hell, pleased don't even begin to cover it." Chris pulled Ezra on top of him, lifting his head so he could kiss those sweet lips. He licked and nibbled on them for several moments. Shifting his leg, Chris froze when Ezra inhaled sharply.

"What? What's wrong?"

"Let's just say certain parts of my anatomy were not meant to rub unprotected against denim."

Chris looked down and saw what he meant. Ezra's somewhat deflated arousal was pressed against his jean-clad leg. "Sorry 'bout that, Ez. Why don't you go lie down on the bed while I get undressed? Then I'll come and kiss it and make it all better."

"Sounds like a deal to me," Ezra grinned, kissed him and then pushed away, rising to his feet. Watching him walk away, Chris stifled the urge to jump up and grab that delicious butt. No matter what Ezra said tonight was about Ezra and his needs. Chris would have to wait for another time to bury himself in that tight, welcoming heat. Letting his head drop back to the floor, Chris groaned.

"Chris?" Ezra called from the bed.

"I'm coming."

"Not yet I hope."

Chris raised himself up to look at him, shaking his head when he saw the lecherous smile. "Evil, Ezra. Evil."

"Um-hmm. Now are you getting up off that floor, or do I have to come down there and get you?"

"Be right there." Getting up, Chris began to undo the buttons of his shirt.

"Uh-uh. Slower."

Chris cocked an eyebrow at the reclining Southerner. Ezra just grinned. As requested, Chris lingered over each button letting the shirt drape open to reveal tantalizing bits of flesh but never enough to satisfy. When the last button was opened, Chris turned so his back was to Ezra. He looked over his shoulder with a sexy smile only to stop at the sight of Ezra lightly stroking himself.

"Please do continue, Chris. You are quite breathtaking."

Sucking in a ragged breath, Chris hooked his fingers in the waistband of his jeans and briefs and in one swift move slid them both to the floor. He managed to ignore Ezra's moan behind him as he stepped out of his clothes. His shirt was still draped down his back and over his arms when he turned around framing his torso and abdomen.

Ezra stared at him for a long moment, his eyes dark with desire but otherwise unreadable. Slowly a mischievous glint entered those twinkling emerald eyes.

"Do something for me, Chris?"

"Anything, Ez."

"Stroke yourself. I want to watch you pleasure yourself."

Chris thought he couldn't get anymore turned on then he already was. He was wrong. The idea of Ezra watching him as he pleasured himself aroused him even more. Without removing his shirt, Chris grasped his manhood in his right hand, his left moving up to pinch and roll his nipple. He kept his gaze locked on Ezra as he slowly stroked himself. Each whimper Ezra made spurred him on to stroke harder, faster. He was close to the edge when Ezra called to him.

"Come here, Chris."

It took him a moment to regain his control before he stepped to the side of the bed. Kneeling, Ezra used the black shirt to draw Chris closer, pressing up against him. Ezra smiled up at him, a smile full of passion and love, and said, "I love you, Chris."

"I love you too, Ez." Chris framed the upturned face with his hands, holding him still as he bent to kiss him. Ezra opened his mouth beneath Chris', sucking on his tongue as it slipped into his mouth. Clutching the Southerner close, he poured all the passion, desire, and love into the kiss that he'd been holding back for the past few months. With a moan Ezra wrapped his arms around Chris's waist and fell back onto the bed taking Chris with him. They laughed holding each other as they rolled on the bed. Ezra managed to get on top, straddling Chris as he pinned his arms to the bed.

Ezra released him but only so that could he rain kisses all along Chris's face, down his neck and across his chest. Ezra seemed to pay special attention to Chris's nipples, nipping and teasing the little nubs of flesh. When Chris was gasping and mewling in pleasure from the attention Ezra continued the journey downward stopping next at his bellybutton. Flicking his tongue into the indentation, Ezra chuckled when Chris sucked in a ragged breath. He nipped at the tender flesh once more before he leaned over to grab the tube of lube he'd left out on the night table. Coating his fingers, he kneeled between Chris's legs.

Chris tensed then forced himself to relax when he felt Ezra's fingers at his opening. He moaned at the feel of those fingers slipping inside him, stretching him. Ezra's tongue sliding along the length of his erection had him whimpering and moaning. He thrust upward trying to get Ezra to take him in his mouth, but it was the feel of his fingers moving deeper, rubbing against his prostate that made Chris gasp in pleasure. Ezra continued to tease and torment his lover for several more minutes until Chris begged, "Please, Ez. Take me. Can't wait any more. I need you so badly."

"Good, because I want you too." Ezra pressed another soft kiss to his lips before lying down beside him. "Straddle me."

Chris stared at him in confusion. "What?"

"I said straddle me."

"I know, but..."

"Trust me, Chris."

Still uncertain Chris rose up and straddled the Southerner's waist. Gripping his thighs, Ezra pushed and maneuvered Chris until he was positioned over his erection. He used one hand to guide himself to Chris's entrance and the other to hold Chris steady. Again Chris tensed, uncertain about this position, but forced himself to relax.

"It's all right, Chris. Just go slowly. Don't try and take it all at once," Ezra spoke encouragingly, gently petting his thigh.

"I don't understand," Chris managed to get out. "Why like this?"

"Control, Chris. It's all about control. You need to have control but at the same time you want to give it up. This is the closest I can give you at the moment. You control the pace of this. We can go as slow or as fast as you need."

"I love you so much, Ezra." He pressed his lips to Ezra's for a long passionate kiss as he slowly lowered himself onto Ezra's rigid length. He trembled and groaned when he was fully seated, Ezra's full length buried inside him. After a moment, he began to rock, raising and lowering himself.

It was a slow, steady rhythm at first, but soon Chris began to pick up speed. Ezra tried to remain still, allowing Chris complete control, but soon found himself thrusting up to meet Chris's downward movements. They quickly fell into sync with each other, moving and thrusting towards completion.

"Oh God, Ez, you feel so good. Unnggh, harder, Ez. Oh yeah, harder."

Ezra was more than happy to oblige, thrusting up as hard as he could. Sensing Chris was nearing completion, he began to fist him, stroking in time to his thrusts.

"Oh God, EZRA!!!" Chris shouted as he spilled his seed over the Southerner's fist and across his chest. As Chris came Ezra grabbed him by the hips and flipped them over, placing Chris on his back. A few hard thrusts and Ezra shouted his own completion. They lay twined together for several long minutes, struggling to regain control of their breathing. Finally Ezra slipped out of Chris and rolled off of him to the side.

Chris was the first to recover and disappeared briefly into the bathroom to get a damp washcloth. Gently washing him, Chris placed kisses all along the Southerner's beautiful body. He cleaned himself as well then tossed the cloth towards the bathroom. Still in a state of euphoria, Ezra complied easily as Chris moved him around to get him underneath the covers. He then slipped in beside him and pulled the smaller man into his arms. Ezra sighed and snuggled close to him.

"I love you," he whispered once more before drifting into sleep.

"I love you too," Chris replied, then joined him in slumber.

Chris groaned and cracked open an eye when the ringing of the bedside phone woke him. He smiled when Ezra muttered something unintelligible and curled up tighter against him. The ring of the phone had him reaching blindly behind him to pick it up. Finally getting the receiver to his ear, he muttered, "Larabee."

"It's not even 10 o'clock and you're already in bed?" The Texan's smile could be clearly heard through the phone.

"Hey, Vin. How's the conference?"

"Same boring shit, different city. Though, I met this Fibbie. Kinda interesting guy. Has all these weird alien theories and stuff. Cute too, in a kinda neurotic sorta way."

"You've been listening to Ezra too long."

Vin snorted. "Uh-huh. Speakin' of Ez, how is he? Did you two talk or did ya just jump him when he got there?"

"We talked. You were right, Vin. I was being a blind idiot. I think we've worked things out though."

"Good. Can I talk to him?"

"He's asleep at the moment."

"No, I'm not," said the groggy Southern drawl.

"It appears I was mistaken. Hold on a sec. It's Vin," Chris said, holding the phone up to Ezra's ear. Ezra didn't bother to lift his head from Chris' shoulder or move in any way when he answered.

"Hey, Vin. How is your stay in Virginia faring?"

"It'd be a whole lot better if you and Chris were here. So, did Chris finally get his head out of his butt?"

Ezra chuckled. "Do you really want an answer to that?"

Vin laughed as well. "Nah. You guys did talk though, right, Ez? You finally get things worked out between ya?"

"Yes, we did. Everything is good now."

"Good. So when you moving in?"

"When you get back, Vin. When you get back," Ezra sighed, starting to drift back to sleep.

"Good. I love you, Ez. Now put the jackass back on and get some more sleep."

"Love you too, Vin." Ezra pushed the phone away from his ear. "Vin said to put the jackass back on."

"You know just for that we're gonna make you take a cab home from the airport."

"I'll pick you up, Vin."

"Traitor," Chris grinned, dropping a kiss on the top of Ezra's head.

"Um-hmm."

"I'm gonna run, cowboy. It's pretty late here. Love you."

"Love you, cowboy. Have fun tomorrow."

"Yeah, that'll happen. Night."

"Night." Hanging up the phone, Chris pulled Ezra tighter against him and drifted off to sleep, a large smile on his face. He was finally certain that both the men in his life loved him and loved each other. Everything was the way it should be.

Fini